River under that Ice!

I am a river which under all that ice
Bears a current so strong and fierce
You cant see that I am on a stride
The flowing tears I try so hard to hide.

I got it all etched in my bloody heart
You don't know how much it hurt,
I miss those whole-hearted laughs
Broken is all I feel when spring starts!

Got any idea of how much I care,
How nervous I am behind that stare?
You curse me and say nothing nice
Pity you, all you can see is the ice!

The lava erupting volcanoes underneath
I am just a snail under that hollow sheath.
I play life so hard and hit so low
Only 'coz I ain't ready for another blow.

I was once a pretty kind damsel too.
But y'all took me for a silly fool;
Hit me when I wasn't watching
Gossiped of me; babe, I was hearing!

You tried to sweep me by my roots
Tried so hard to hide all your ugly truths.
It hurts even now to play indifferent
But hurts even more to be different.

So here I am, just one of your kind
Or worse yet, I let your lies unwind.
Ah, Its sickening be in your lot
I am groping now for my way out!