The final blow

Sometimes in life you gotta trust someone

Trust me when I tell you that I am the one
You keep snapping the silvery bond we share
I feel like am waiting for nobody somewhere
You say I can never be good enough for you
Keep pushing me away without a single clue
You've hurt more than you could ever know
I am tired of waiting for the Christmas snow
I've run out of patience and am exhausted
Your photos will go and memories soon dead
I know for sure that things will be soon okay
Tomorrow will be sunnier than yesterday
Maybe I can never forget the spring we met
But I want you to know our sun has already set.

To my handicapped nailbuds!

I try my best to not hurt you

To be good and start anew,

Someday I am gonna be proud

Showing you off to the crowd

But baby, sometimes I get so sad

I forget myself and act real bad

A terrible exam or a horror flick

It is poor you that I forever pick

I crush and bite and tear and chew

It pains me just like it does for you.

I want you grown pretty and tall

Yet, I totally forget it by nightfall

There you crumble jailed by teeth

Your tips reddening at your death.

I paint to keep your glossy charm

Bitter, but they seldom sound the alarm.

I sit here all alone doing the mourning 

'My stunted nails' - A late warning

Random memoir

As I do another waiting drill
For another diet coke refill
Looking at slow clock tick
Way too irritated to even blink
Jumps out from nowhere
A pretty random memoir -
The day I first met you
You were young, hardly five
Lucky for us, so was I
Shared candy and played seek
Every day in every week!
We grew tall but still cried
Over small things, silly fights
You were there on my side
I was wrong but you held tight.
We made funny horror faces
Fussed over lace and dresses
Shivered before our speeches
Crammed 'Acids and Bases'!
Better memories sure to exist
But these make me smile best.

Invisible

I rush up to your side

Every day, every single time

Tell me can't you really see?

The mess I make, the books I drop,

The way I look, the jokes I crack

Does nothing really bother you?

I don't want to sit by myself

Be some old book on the shelf

Can't you hear my whispers at all?

I try so hard to be your type

Laugh funnily and fake an ego

Shan't you smile for once at me?

I know that you are so busy

Fussing about gucci and nike!

Does it cataract you eyes, babe?

I've started looking in the mirror again

Checking if I'd become invisible man

Can't you see or are you not looking?

The divine secret

An eerie silence
reverberates the unique difference
of the hard rocks expressing their might
over the curved river reflecting the mild light
fighting its way through the toes of the stones
unyielding to the vain tickling of the brook
or the high falling water exerting force
Alas!The rock still stands,
the river unable to coerce,
wavers defeated in the war for space
to move strong rivals covered in haze
The depressed river still flows undisturbed
conveying to the flower bed
which resting upon the prickly bushes
lazily listens to the water's low hushes
and at its own leisure blooms the message,
A secret beyond man's intellect
a secret that has eluded his technical mind
From the day his sixth sense worked
he refuses to hear this message
that echoes in the hills rustles in the river
flowers on the bush and resounds everywhere
the divine secret of un-spoilt nature.

In my head

Tug of war

When I think of the day we met
My eyes do not get swollen
Doesn't mean I am not upset
My cheeks make sure to redden.
I know you are on the other side
Feeling just like that about me
Carried away by the flowing tide
I am starting to regret all the fuss.
Should have tried to break the glass
We never stepped to clear the dust
Now it has broken what was us
The wall is now stronger for either fist.
Gotta try together, gotta bring it down
Which of us will bell the cat now?
Babe, who will first lose that frown?
Do we vote or do we pick a card?
Us, pulling at the end of a tight rope
Playing a cruel game of tug of war
Waiting for the other one to go easy
Tugging strong, sigh, neither of us smart.
I have got an idea for a win-win
Lets both let go on the count of three
Falling to the ground on a twister spin
How hard can it be for both of us to see!

Drink-and-drive alert!!! (Not original)

I went to a party Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink,
So I drank soda instead.

I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive,
Even though the others said I should.

I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending,
As everyone is driving out of sight. 

As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet..

I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me,
And hit me like a load.

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk,"
And now I'm the one who will pay.

I'm lying here dying, Mom....
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me,
My life just burst like a balloon..

There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say,
I'll die in a short time.

I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.

He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank
And I will die.

Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.

The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.

Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven,
Put "GOOD BOY " on my grave.

Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him,
I would still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter,
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you, you were always there.

I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die?

I shan't cry!

In my head, I am curling up in a corner

Feeling almost like I am a wretched goner

Sticking to the wall and crying it all out 

Wishing I could be there on the lonely cloud!

But, here in the crowd, the tears I brave

A moist smile, locking the sobs I badly crave;

I speak so low, in hushed tones, lest I show

To my upset world the emotions I hold afloat.

You just told me how incapable I was

Went straight to my heart breaking the glass;

But in my story, I am the heroine sans the pink

And you? A dejected forgotten prick!

Can't keep your secrets anymore!

Why am I so low?

Oh, I should've said it long ago

(Holy cow)

      It wasnt that hard to know

I am about to smash down your ego

Your friends are gonna love this show

Next time you walk here

Watch out for that tear

(Holy cow!)

You are gonna be the joker

Everybody crying 'loser'

Does it taste that bitter?

Still plannin' to make me shiver?

(Holy cow!)

I don't fear your eyes anymore

All your secrets out on the road, galore!

(Your friends are gonna love this show)

You fall down on my feet

So white as a  marble sheet

(Your friends are gonna love this show)

Am in a tight spot,

Square in a round pot

(Holy cow)

      Wonder why I never thought

Nothin's changing for the better

You've got a high fever

(Holy cow)

      My mom always said I was clever.

(Your friends are gonna love this show)

You were the bully brat

Made me your lab rat

(Holy cow)

     You were an arrogant prat!

I never never liked you

Your rules or your curfew

(Holy cow)

     Hard of sense and virtue

Holy cow, holy cow

All you can mumble now

Holy cow holy cow!

The hero I never noticed

This is about someone I had taken for granted
A loving, big-hug, kiss-showering grand dad
He had been just there as long as I know
Like a pillar, How I wish time had moved slow!
Taken him for granted, how I wish I knew!
He spoke of the world and everything sense
Then I honestly believed it was utter nonsense
that kept me from dressing up my pretty dolls.
How I wish I remembered our private strolls!
He smelled of tobacco and spoke too hushed
Made me run long errands, ah, how he rushed!
My eyes were too picky, saw only the thorns
Now that I think of him, my rusted heart burns.
Sitting there all day humming in his old chair
Of heavy melodies of hurtin' love and despair
I wish I had understood how much he missed me

Those days when I bolted away wantin' to be free.

As I sing of him today in grave horrible tones

I wish he could hear it all from beneath the stones.

That's how I say I care!

I can't tell you that you mean a lot
I never can tell what I really thought
Its not my style to shower cheap praise
I can't hold for long the sweet disguise.

No, you can't see what is in my mail
Nor will you hear me tell its every detail.
I ain't gonna look at you before I decide
It ll sure hurt a lot so better think twice.

I can't go down on my knees for you
If you demand that, I might even sue.
It is really very hard to stay by my side
Hard to keep up with me even if you tried.

I bet its way too revolting for a start
You'd stay miles away if you were smart.
I swear , I would never let you cry for long
But never ever dream of some soothing song.

Tears on sale

You swore to stick on to me forever

Love me like there wasn't another - 

Ah, Nothing happens the same way twice

Now that you've gone, i am being wise.

I randomly twist and roll and dream

Biting off my pillow stuffing free.

I hate to look at the mirror now

Funny dark circles and a pitiable glow.

It ain't like me to stay so sad

Still can't help it wen it hurts this bad.

Though, A happy life doesn't come for free

I found tears on sale in my shopping spree 

Found a real deal and roped in a dozen

Filled my bag with the salty bottles

I bet i bought a whole wee lot more

For I still have got the entire store.