THIS IS NOT FOR ME!

I was always fooled that love stayed forever

Now, I have stopped dreaming the ‘happily ever after’

Should have learnt all about it from old eve’s tale

I tried it once and I had my bitter apple’s share

What was I thinking when I said the ‘Yes’

Whatever, It turned out to be one big ugly mess

I knew right away that love wasn’t for me

I just put it on the hoardings for everyone to see

You are every girl’s cool cake with icing and cream

That unseen face in many a lady’s dream

You loved me and the curse for you was fatal

You watched my path for the tripping stones

I smirked that I had insured each of my bones

Made up stories to ease me when I lied to you

Guilty as I was, I yelled that you never believed

Held my hand on that high roller-coaster

But all I did was complain about the pain later

I said I wanted to be left alone and needed space

When people told me I got lucky with the wedding ring

I made them believe that you were smothering

No, I have gone really crazy, deep into the wild

How could I ever think I could make it

When it is way too hard to even fake it!!!

‘Love is forever’ – but definitely not for me

Wish you could heal from loving the witch

Hope for some pretty girl to volunteer that stitch!

When dreams come true..

Just when life is dreary and its luster gone

The annoying door bell chimes too long

As I hesitantly budge to the entrance frustrated,

The creased linen and the daylong saltiness

A crumpled shirt and a disappointingly done tie

A flashing smile glowing through all fatigue

Compassionately held in those brown hands

‘An unexpected bouquet of roadside flowers’

A token of my remembrance in spite of all toil.

While the revitalizing caffeine boils in the kettle

Rested carelessly, I amuse myself with the short curls

The dullest episode on TV keeps playing uncared

The kettle sounds a must-be-stopped alarm

As I stir forward to sprint to the kitchen

A warm sweaty hand encircles mine

An assisting glance scans my face wanting to help

Turning down the offer, I slowly pour

Into the porcelain mugs, the steaming brew

Sipping into the hot coffee in silence

I sloppily lie down on the soft couch

Watching the channels being scanned swiftly

And it stops with one prominent sports channel

Telecasting for the tenth time an old football game

Still so remarkable and so vibrantly attention grabbing

The still air vibrates with energy and hi-fives tag along

Dinnertime long elapsed the ‘Oooh’s continue

Slumber overrides and my eyes close with a smile

After a final peek at the withering flowers

Praying for the dream to continue..

When senses failed…

A shocking desire to take one more glimpse

Overrules my intellect and I give in to instinct

A blunder I never should have made

For those inviting eyes gets mine locked

And onlookers find the staring eccentric.

An air of ease and cozy warmth sets

The high set sky swings into my beloved hue

Reflecting in those deep brilliant black eyes.

Whether I truly loved the real backdrop

Or the unique reflection I am not so sure

And trying to unravel my own mystery

I further look straight into those sparkles.

And what came to pass after

I never in truth bothered to discern

And when I finally retrieved my sanity

I lay in bed waking up to another dull day.

UNDO… (Thank you WINDOWS!!)

I stared into the blank word page

Where once had been my abstract

For a moment I heard tomorrow

The frenzied audience and the abuse

Hastily I stirred up as my phone blared

With another message from the provider

I was tired, I could barely stand

The hallucinations were certainly bad

But reality could be probably even worse

Just as I was getting a mind block

My brain cells hit upon the treasure

Springing up came the power of Ctrl+Z

Can’t love you enough, Dad!!

I remember the time long back when

You taught me balance that red bike

You said you would hold and never let go

I trusted you well and the ride was great

I was soaring and turned back to smile

To see far away with sparkles in your eyes

I collapsed and stones pierced through

You were the first to come running to me

But not the one to kiss my bruises

You looked stern and said it was alright

Forced me ride many more times

I slept on my wetted pillow that night.

A tear glistens again in my eye corners-

The firmness was a way of showing love

Had your own point in making me tough..

As I recall those days, I understand,

How I’ve never loved you enough,

Loved like you did, like you well deserved.

You were ready to let me fly then

When I wasn’t sure if I was ready

Back as a kid, you told me I had grown

To take care of myself and my things

Now that I badly want to take wing,

Take my own decisions about the world,

You hold me back and say I am a kid.

If those hardened bruises taught me to ride,

The ones I might make will teach me to survive.

I still am rude and say you are pushy

It’s the holy tear that drops again

When I think how I’ve never loved you enough

Loved like you did, like you well deserved.

LOVE DIES HARD

When you coughed your way out of the room

To muffle all the uncontrolled sobs,

When you turned away once awhile

To smear your tears with a smile,

When you were drenched in the rain

I never saw those puffed up eyes.

I was clever and bragged about myself

But how could I never see through you?

When you were depressed I thought about it

Soon you made-up and I freakin’forgot it

I mulled over it, I slept over it

I still couldn’t see why you were upset.

I thought by dawn, you would be fine

Again things came piling up in my line

Soon I was busy, I drowned in my files

And I never heard you moan in pain

I thought we were pals, no, two into one

You never said a word and you were gone

Now that you left, I am crying alone

Why didn’t you tell me when I was wrong

Maybe you thought I didn’t care.

And that I wouldn’t note if you left me bare

To make it through in spite of you

You thought I had the strength

Without farewell and without a bye

You never gave me a chance to try

Love dies hard, harder than you thought

You live in me and you are all I ‘ve got

All I have got, All I have got

Love dies hard, harder than you thought

Harder than you thought!!

Wrong Girl, Sorry :(

Last time I asked you said, I was the only one

Bt now the meat in all those words are gone

You thought I would crash like a domino,

No no no nananana no!

Baby, this time I am going hard on you

Hard on you

Hard on you

Never make promises that are hard to keep

And this time you’ve cut me real deep

Should’ve thought it all before the flowery speech

S-P-E-eeya-eeya-eech

You’ve sucked my last nerve like an icky leech

Icky Icky leech

Icky icky leech

You might have gotten away a zillion times

Sorry, This gal’s really got no time for games

You shud be wishing that you crashed wid ur Ferrari

Fer Fer Fer rararara rii!

Start praying to be rottin’ dead for good

Dead for good

Dead for good